The World of Phil Hendrie

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The following podcast contains if you like your language and adult discussion. It's a nice open. Nice addition to the open. Look, this the Kevin Nash podcast, I am Shawn, and. We we as people, are tasked with mountain climbing in our lives sometimes and and we rely on the things we learn growing up, the survival skills we we some of us better than others. We rely on maybe the advice of others, the help of others. And then then there are a handful of very small, very small handful of occasions that are so unnatural to the human makeup that we're not as well equipped. And it is very much a an improvisation, you know, calling that audible every day. And my friend and co-host or host of the the titular host of this show is Kevin Nash, and Kevin got dealt that hand this week. The very unnatural in the the humanity of things. And Kev, braver, braver woman than I said, Don't you dare run a best of show because I have to talk to the world and Kevin is here and going to talk to the world, and I lose the terms. Yeah, well, as best we can. Yeah. So I mean, on behalf of me and the crew and the listeners, I'm as much a listener as anybody else. I thank you for wanting to do that and and maybe helping someone write my man. I always was curious of. There was some way to get me to stop saying, f**k every other word. YouTube, thanks you for this episode, by the way. And I think that's a I think this is a but I'm not so sure about that. You're going to read a website later, but anyway, to a blog? Right, right, right. Yeah. But yeah. This Wednesday, this Wednesday morning, my. My son passed. So I I heard from Kevin on Tuesday. Afternoon. And yeah, you told me that he had been rushed to the hospital, had had what they thought was a seizure. And that's kind of the start of it. Yeah, the the seizure caused the the cardiac arrest. He was basically dead in his room. On the floor with the empty words around. And they got him back. Got him in the. And the ambulance. And. Try to save his life and. So to the people that Joe and Halifax hospital doctors and nurses that they accuse. It t wasn't feeling well in the days prior. Now we're here, you know, we both had just decided that we were going to stop drinking. She and, you know, so it was a situation where, you know, we both were called to. Well, yeah. I don't think either of us felt great because he stopped drinking coffee for a day and you have a. You know, so I I think that, you know, I think that we were both. Dealing with it. But also because we're so close to the cruise lines here that nor virus ship is. Always broke, relevant, so. I'm sorry, I'll go, look, you know. Acid coming up my f**king throat. So what precipitated the decision before we get into the events of the last few days, what precipitated your decision and his decision not to drink anymore? Was it something you talked about prior? Yeah, no. I mean, it was just. You know, he had had a couple of of of incidents. And. We actually sat with we sat up here last Wednesday, and in the course of the show, he he drank. Four or five beers? Unbeknownst to me, they'd been in this this refrigerator. You know, they've been in there for maybe, you know, three or four hurricanes ago. I just realized there's like nothing in the refrigerator except, you know, some bottles of water that we bring up here. And there was a six pack of soggy Japanese beer and he drank them and I got, you know, I got pissed and I said, That's just not a subscriber because you had the situation, you know, at the beginning of the year where he was, it was it was hospitalized for almost 60 days and. You know, it's this is this is this is my cross to bear. You know, it's alcoholism. It took one of my dearest friends. A gentleman named vention, sir. Maybe a year ago. It took Scott. And. And now it's taken my son. Did you have alcoholism in your family, Kevin, when your dad dies at 36, who knows? Yeah, he drank. You know, he drank. I don't know. I don't know. It wasn't referenced as a problem, though, by your mother subsequently or no. It was hard to get drunk when you smoked a carton of cigarettes. There was no time for a bottle to hit the lips. There's always too busy monkey. f**k in a cigarette off the next one or the other. So they do say there's something in. My father was an alcoholic. I, though I'm not. But I do have addictive traits to my personality. I definitely can can say that. So that's why I was wondering if maybe even something you'd you'd had in your family at all? No, almost my wife hasn't hurt on her side of it. Yeah. So. I don't really think anybody in my family, if anybody was the the like, I didn't I didn't drink me a drink when I played, when I played ball in college, I was in college, you know, so it was like, you know, I drank. I started drinking, I was 13. I don't know something like that as I'm smoking a little petters and s**t back then and, you know, so right, so. Hmm. So you guys make the decision on Wednesday after the show, after the show so that so, you know, a week later, he passes. So obviously, you know, I mean, it was. But, you know, the thing was, it's it's really, you know, when you look back at things, it's like, so he wasn't feeling good. So we were kind of my wife and I were just kind of waiting on him hand and foot. And we knew he was trying that he's trying to do this. And one of the things that if you web him do that one of the things of a cold turkey is that you have an increased rate of have an increased risk of having a seizure. And he he was prescribed killers, PAM, which is a f**king bogus benzo. You know? Because I'm a Xanax, I mean, I've been prescribed Xanax for 27 years. It's an anti-anxiety. Yeah, okay. Yeah, yeah, yeah, he's he's definitely my kid. He's f**king he was, you know? I'll say I'll say it. Present tense. He is f**king strung tight. Wherever he is, he's strung Typekit driving someone crazy. No, he's no job, no driving. No, no drive you crazy. I mean, just as gentle guys, I've been around. I know. Of course. Of course he's sick. He's the sweetest, kindest, gentlest human being on Earth. But it's just it's his it's like he is like, I am. It's it's it's internal. It's sure it's here. You can't shut this motherf**ker off. So Anti was the same word. No matter what time of the day or night man like. If I was to where it was four o'clock in the morning and I was just like, Oh, maybe I'll watch another movie before. Morning Joe starts and her up too early and the next thing you know, I'd hear somebody and my son was like a ninja. T was like a ninja. I'd hear like one or like one or two little noises. That'd be like somebody up. But I have surround sound in my and the TV room. So, you know, sometimes it's like a walk or somebody walking around. Then I'll sit near the ice. You know the ice machine? T yeah, that will be like something to drink. Bob giving me I don't know, here we open the thing, no bomb back upstairs, so and it's you know, and he's also because he's a musician. It was not unheard of for him to. This strumming a song at four a.m. in it upstairs, like, you know, 30 feet from the master. So acoustic, I hope. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. Or my wife and I were watching the movie and like, we're just we're into it. We're sitting there and he just walks down and kicks back. The bench on the piano just starts banging out. It's like, you're just sick. It's too bad. So you just you just you just reach over there. Either my wife does or I do. And we, we we just hit pause and he works through it. And he's raised a couple of notes down or goes over, maybe hits the guitar. A couple of things back upstairs and he's off. Yeah, he's doing his thing. So, yeah, so no, he's yeah. As I said, it's the way it was with Scott's birthday, you know, the day after he passed and. There was. It is so funny because. You know that if there are any, you know, anything that that's that's going on. I mean, I've had some, some bizarre incidents in my life where it's just like, it's it's it's not cut and dry, it's not science, it's not. This is not that. And when my, my wife and I were. Standing over my son and. He took us to is his last heartbeat. I just we were just a number one, he was he he he was beautiful. I mean, it was just he looks so gorgeous. I I actually thought for a minute, I said, this is my son, vampire legacy glamming me. You know, it's just like he was just like, I just looked at him. I was just like, And what happened was like when they checked his electrical currency to his head to his brain, they had put this like crazy, you know, look like something from Star Trek. And I said that to to check his his electorate activities to make sure that, you know, it was was a brain dead. And even though there, I mean, it was it was very rudimentary, but they just wanted to make sure he had some electrical activity. So, yeah, there was a young guy that did it and. You know, he couldn't read the machine, of course. So he had no information. But what he did do was he put this gel all throughout my son's hair. You know, for for for a conduit? Yeah, which made for incredible styling. When you went over and you say, my wife would always say, we always do the same thing, we'd like the one from one. If you walked up to us, to us to to tea and if you went on, if you weren't on the right side. Like the. Because of the recess, if anybody's mathematics is mathematics, that's here with me today. He's went through all, I mean, he is with through every step of this. And so we've been able to just just sit for the last three days and just like. Kind of, you know, I wouldn't call it tennis and maybe pickleball, you know, are graphic, horrific. We'll never get this out of our head moments, but between his father and my son, and we were just both saying, that's when you walk into that, that ICU room and somebody is being resuscitated, and it's to the point where they they're breathing like this. There's a good juror, and every time that they breathe, and Max was saying when we were talking about today, you saying like. And then he said. For the first 10 to 15 times that happens, it's it's the most. I mean, it's the most horrific, jarring. And then within a half hour. It's normal it becomes complete normalcy. So is this t got is as time went on and things started to go, I think got it before, I don't want to jump too far forward here because God forbid, if I I mean, you know, I'm such a liar on everything else, I'm sure making this up to. If you went on auntie's left or right, it wasn't as he didn't, I mean, he still looked great. But it was more it was more of a push down here with the with the whole breathing apparatus from the other side, man, I suppose by the time 30 minutes came after they checked him for. They checked him for four brainwaves. I had I had his hair. He looked just like f**king Clint Eastwood in Dirty Harry. I mean, I had I had that thing that Callahan and, you know, look on and. Oh, we were. My wife and I were just, you know, we took the tourists. We did. We go up, we go up together and, you know, and as time goes on, as time went on about 1:30 1:45 in the morning, the doctor just wanted to talk to us and hopes of help, but not in front of my kid. You know, are you going to tell me something s**tty like, you know, I don't want him to hear it? And they said he was in a coma. The. We whispered to him several times his heart rate went up somewhere. Now he's teed those would score on the hearings. The last thing to go. Yeah, he's you know, he exactly. So we went in the other room and he just so cute. We sat on the head of one of those codes, we had to punch the numbers to get into the room and. Lo and behold, there were classified information that Trump has stalled. So they are even today. Hey, man, if I don't laugh, I'm going to blow my brains out. So the doctor actually, you know, I mean, and then nobody takes a mask off in a hospital. They just don't do it with with, though, especially with Kobe starting to get a little peek. And you know, it's just it's just a prop.. But he he took it was I'm sure he I mean, he was probably 12 feet away from us, he said. The chair and we sat two chairs. They just looked down on my wife and I. They just said, you know, he just sounds like make it. I would. And I said, you know, I should watch it, I'm not going to I'm not going to pull his breathing tube. I said, I won't do that. I said, that's not that's not an option. I said, So where would it be? Typekit says. I said, You're saying that when the when we had the the the cardiac arrest, if you did damage to his heart, so that that's why we can't get his bottom number up and mantises the ventricles. The bottom ventricle had been damaged to some degree because it didn't have the ability to to push blood. Just his top number was much higher, and even though they medically brought the top number down, she was like one over 55. They just couldn't get that bar blood pressure like they could have got that to 70. I'm sure that would have been. But by the time they did, it was like she wasn't. You start putting out urine and it was one of those things they just like, like, you know, there's this. There's so many things my. He had. Some kind of ulceration, whether Ben Ali's esophagus like I had, I have really bad GERD, which is like acid reflux that basically happens when you sleep and I'm on medication for. And he always would. I mean, he was always eating Tums, and at top of all that, you couldn't give Trystan hot enough or spicy enough food. I mean, he was there was always something in our refrigerator that was no. Nobody else on Earth could eat with him. You know, some kind of pepper, you know, something. And in addition to the alcohol that you were mentioning before, though, and yeah, you did talk about him being a generally nervous guy, which could have been contributing to an alteration of the stomach from his nerves. Right? Yeah, I wasn't nervous as much as he was just he was just high strung. You know, and. The amount of hate that I have received through any form, fashionable, you know, somebody that just tries to slide something on Instagram underneath something about my son, you know? It's like. People that have gotten, you know. I have my phone number, you know, but it doesn't like I've said a million times. If you don't have my phone number, you have a drive. And people just, you know. Just absolutely the most racist, you know? I'm an RN lover this and that, you know. Yeah, yeah, know Black Lives Matter, but your kids don't delay this all just getting this on the telephone. Oh s**t, their kids casket, I'm thinking. What what can I do like think like, I'm sorry, you guys can have all the civil unrest that this country is so f**ked. I mean, I get it, I get it, man. You want to take it out on me. You want to think that that, but. I now look at it and I say to myself, this is what my son probably had to and he wasn't going to come to me. You know, this is just something that he probably had to block and something that he had to do. And he's not 63 years old. He's a 26 year old young man. You know, and it's just like he shouldn't have to. You know, he shouldn't have to pay for the sins of the father. You know, he's his own human being. He didn't do anything to anybody. There's somebody out there that he did wrong, please step forward and I'll find out, and I will be able to say you're a liar, because all I've heard for the last three days is with an unbelievably sweet, kind human who really was so. You know, if you're out there, I can. You won't you won't. I promise you. I promise you, you won't upset me. You won't upset me, my son's my. I wondered why my son was wasn't here anymore and the amount of hatred that was passed to me after he passed. He's the smartest dude in the world. He knew, man, he knew. I'm getting I'm getting out of here. This is a s**thole. This place is an absolute s**thole. Sorry, mom. Sorry, dad. I'm just I'm just going to I'm going to go someplace else. We were going someplace else as as terrible and unfortunate as those phone calls are, and I guess a commentary on why people feel they have permission to do these things today. I saw a lot about T from listeners of this show who knew he worked on it and we always talked about it, but who had a sense of him. They said things having never met him and just admitting that the only the only things they knew of Tristan were from here. When we had him come on air a little bit and talked a little bit that we did, we were. We were easing him in. Right. And but the things they said, the words they use, the adjectives they used were dead on. I mean, he came through the screen. It may sound dramatic, but if you guys go and follow the feed on the click this Twitter page, you'll see what people said about Tristan and they were they were dead on. It was a special kid. Yeah, now I could see was my. You know, despite him, be mine. So if you don't mind, I wanted to ask you about tourism, so so those are the events of of the last couple of days from a timeline standpoint. I think we should drive to Blucher now or, yeah, jump to a quick blue, should one go. I dare you dare me to be emphatic. Listen, I could do almost anything. But so so for and where we have what we draft draft kings. What do we got? We got some friends that are going to be popping up throughout the show. But. But as Tristan always enjoyed me reminding people, you don't want confidence to fail, you going to do it in the bedroom? OK? You know, many times I heard him off camera kind of doing throwing in a man. Yeah, every once in a while, the off camera, the off mike voice of of Trystan. No, you will get your ads recorded today, ladies and gentlemen. We were having some fun with this before we went on. The air and cameras was like, DraftKings is a great ad to read today. That's fine. And I was like, Well, yeah, but my Segway into blue chew is not. 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This, as I said in the opening, to show it the the the burying of a child with the passing of a child, let's just say is is the most unnatural one of the handful of unnatural things that we're not supposed to experience by design. Our life expectancy was about 30 a couple of thousand years ago. And you know, your kids were, you know, 14 15 when you were checking out, they were getting married, they were having kids. And as we grew, as science keeps us alive now till 75 or whatever they tell us, one of one of the unfortunate byproducts of such a long life is is is the loss of a child and something obviously you never considered in life. How can you? It's just such an unnatural thing. No, it's yeah, this is this a point? Is it's this counseling valid now. Where does where does one go? There's the disbelief. I would imagine there's got to be. And this is like my my wife and I will will will search. And I I don't know because I've had so much death in my life. You know, like I don't I don't know if that's the case. Maybe, I mean, I know that I get it when you started eight years old with your dad and you just got to work your way through life and you know, during that era were 45 of the boys died and you know, and then finally, you know, it's you know. Age gets real close to passing a guy that never took a drink, and then Scott. You know. Sky passing. It just. Disbelief didn't happen for you. I think what? Well, you know, it's really hard to disbelieve that your son's past when you watch his last heartbeat. I mean, I still feel I'm in the house. Absolutely. Yeah. But when, not when, when I, as they usually do get distracted. When my wife and I were standing over him and he had taken us this last, this last breath pulls the art, be whatever you want to call it. Before that, they before they came over and the two nurses have to check for a heartbeat. They have to, you know. I concur, I concur. You know, in the next day, that's the time of death and. So I just we were old and have some real. Hello, sir. We're hold hands and we look at each other and I said, what are you thinking? And she said, I'm at peace. I said, me too. Wow. Sydney to. So. I mean, give us this one. Yeah. Just because of how tumultuous it was over those past that day. Yeah, it was, but it was. And even now, my wife. When she gets in a funk. She just basically says to get me out of the funk, and she's fine. So, wow, he's a magic man. Yes, Nancy Wilson was always one of my favorites, yeah. Thanks so. So to other parents. Well, let me ask, let me frame the question this way, you guys made a decision to quit drinking on Wednesday, had alcohol been a discussion, a fairly regular discussion and for how long? She was 26. Now let's go backwards. I I think that is that alcohol has been in Max and Max. Max grew up with a 10 and max. Well, we got six. Five, you guys. Yeah. So the boys, the boys were five when. I met I met Max's dad first, and then we all went on a Disney Disney Cruise. And sorry to hear that. Oh, f**k the kids loved him. And it was St. Thomas. Came in and I think maybe saved Martin or some like that other like once we did that, we came back. Got a look at photos. Sorry. Like many you, Papua New Year, Nexium there. Is that what you take, by the way, for the GERD? Because I have terrible acid reflux too. So I know it's been on Nexium for 20 years, which they've just given me cancer. It's Pant, Pant, it's some sort of panna panna plug, whatever. Yeah, I don't know. Yeah, it's like $40. It's like it's what they give you when you are actually bleeding out in a bag. I just accidentally fell for that. You just asked for the heavy duty. Know one of the many things keeping my my metabolic syndrome genetics at bay. Well, you told me there were no 60 year old Nash's or no 15 year old Great Dane. So what year there is now you're laughing? Yeah, exactly. Definitely there is no, no, no. But at the same time, we would we? We took a picture last year. We were all up in Michigan and all the Nash like my sons, my my. Brother and his son and me and my son stood there and we all did this. And we took the picture, all four of us and I all, you know, it's just like. And I was I actually looked at it last night. I looked the picture with just like, f**k man, because now, you know, Ti is at 26. He beats my dad by 10 years. So so that when I do, I start doing those kind of math problems, they realized that when my when my son was born. A June 12, 1996, and I had to go to Japan shortly after that for something individual related and. Or maybe was that I just remember that I was looking at them and realizing that I was going to be. July 9th, I was going to turn 36, so I was going to be my dad's age where he was basically born, he was born. Wow. Yeah. So and I just really that like just resonated like, wow, my dad died so early because I was a kid. You know, I was still a kid, man. And it's like now he passes 10 years before that. And I just like, it's it's it's. I thought I said, Brown, I must have owned a rotten motherf**ker to have as much bad s**t happen to me as I do. I might have money and I, but I tell you what man I this is. I was talking to my daughter today and I used the the term, and I do it often the 50-50 in life our vessel is touching to two banks of of the river at all times. The things we tend to focus on the good stuff, but we are also touching the other side also. And there are things that we don't pay much attention to, but but are not good. And so to expect in life, to have an imbalance of so much of one and not the other is is probably unrealistic. We have, you know, part of life is that that other bank that we don't pay attention to and it's it's it's overgrown, sometimes with tragedy and in the things we don't want to pay attention to. And you know, I went to I went to my phone after the news and I and and I had the last, the last text I had from him. And I know if I can get it on the on the camera there and. It was a lovely man, and it f**king knocked me down for a little while, too. He was just just a gentle and really emotionally mature. So I wasn't at most. At 26, I wasn't especially mature as Tristan was. I wasn't. I'm not at 63. It's true you wave goodbye. But so I wanted to give you an opportunity to talk to parents that may see. Alcohol, the frequency of I don't know is apparent, Kevin, honestly, if my daughter came home from a party in high school or college, when she goes next year, you know, and I know she got a little loaded, like, what would the line for me be? Where do I become concerned? How does one know what's a problem and what is, let's face it, the normal trajectory of growing up as a young man or woman? OK, so it's a add, you know, I mean, I've been searching over our son, but now I need to add this because this is something that people that have met him and spent time with him. And then you tell them this and they're like, What? My son, my son, was autistic. My son was Aspergers, my son was very, very high educated, very, very high IQ, but my son was autistic. On top of all of those things, so like he got the, you know, like was was sick. Like we say, he was nervous. He was this no. He sat me down one time at a diner. And we're sitting there and we're waiting on our food, hey, look to me, dad, because I got a bail. For what was wrong, but I guess I can't take it. I said what? And there were these two older, maybe 65 year old women. They were cackling like to boost down. You know, I said that because that that they pointed there was a guy with the with the mop gimmick, you know, the mop where you squeeze it in his pocket and he's banging that around. And then above this is a ceiling fan going check, check, check, check, check, check, check. I don't know that he's calling them out. I absorb it and I'm like, OK. I think it's for him. It's been for seven minutes. OK, it's time for him to bail. He's got to go. And once you. Like, once he pointed that out to me, any time I always tried to read his eyes, any time was like, you know, it was a. I'd be like because people that were aggressive. He was always a whoa, what do you like, what are you so like, you know, it's like he he used to get so pissed at me. I'd be screaming at somebody on the phone. He would just not get done and he he would just look at me and shake his head. He like. They did it did does does it get done faster? Disagree. I mean, I don't know. I've never not screamed. No. I don't know. I try not to scream. It's just like I could laugh. Bob's I try. I mean, maybe, maybe I should try harder. But. You know, I don't know, but it's just I like my wife and I learned so much from him. You know, he was because he was always exploring and investigating and, you know, when people would say something, I hear somebody say, you know, Well, the Colorado River is going to hit me. My son told me that eight years ago. You know, like all the water problems are happening right now, like my my son pointed that out, you know, in vivid detail eight years ago. Hmm. Yeah. So just like that's another thing I like to imagine when there's no water to drink. You want to be on this. You want to be on this. You want to be on this ball dirt. Obviously, he did the the sensitivity to noise with him being a musician. Seems like counterintuitive, but if you think about it, maybe he could hear things, the subtleties in music, right? Oh yeah, we couldn't hear he was so many times he was he would he would listen to somebody's music and. He is there. I mean, I don't like what a great there. You know, he's playing as a half cord right there. I mean, like. Oh, right. You know, I. But, you know, and and him and Isaac is his friend, Isaac, who came Isaac, came by to the house last night. They were they've been playing music together since sixth grade. And it was sick. Max was was always, well, Max would come down. Max slips by by Pittsburgh and I mean, he actually lived. He grew up in the transfer Hermitage area, which is north of Pittsburgh, probably 60 miles. But I mean, just for, you know, to to pinpoint so people don't have to. He basically lived in the Pittsburgh area, but north north a very. And but they his his father, Vince, was an auctioneer. He did a lot for the culture. Auctioneer, auctioneer where he would take like, you know, I'd. Gigantic New South New Jersey nursery and auction, everything they had from the tractors to every tree plant. I mean, he would auction and then ahead of American auctioneers. I mean, to do that to terrible, really awful. And I mean, he was is a bad a*s at it, too. You know, and he he he went with the times, as is his is the business as the business progressed and then Prince took it online. And but we were just so Vince had the capability like I did to always, he could work from anywhere and he could he could also come down here where they were. His grandparents had a house a mile from our home and the boys could spend, you know, three or four weeks of the summer together. Maybe we could out of the keys for a week or someplace else. And then every fourth of July, he had to venture a giant party up and then hermitage. And we would go up there for the Fourth of July. And that was like a, you know, four or five days. Just it was it was a hard run and. OK, but we were talking last night, Max, so that was so weird to to see Isaac and to talk to Isaac and not have Tristen likes plop down and just, you know, for him to be there. Then last night we went up to. To Israel, and, you know, I was asking the guys, you know, at what time was there? And basically like. What do you you guys want the Max? Max came with us, his mom I like, I mean, just as soon as as soon as Tristan passed by, my wife called Tami, and that was it was Max's mother and. It was a like we'll be there like she was, I think they they were here. My son passed six 10. 6:30 for actual by the time we got to telephone, to talk to people, they were in our living room at 2:30. So yeah. And then my sister in law was was was there shortly after. So it was like. I had people reach out, I mean, I'm sure everyone gets, but I think there are people that don't know if you're still in touch with them or what, so they they reached out to me like Russo. I don't know if Russo got two, but yeah, I think to insulate Vincent, I talked on a Twitter direct message. OK, yeah, it's very, very kind. Joey Styles also, I didn't I? And that's the whole thing. I apologize if I haven't got back to you, but it's when you pick up your phone. And like, we just wanted a simple statement. Just so we could get a get a breath. But at the same time, I didn't want. A simple statement. To. Take the place of this, and I knew I would, I I knew because t this was so important to TNR that I was going to the matter what I was going, I was going to come back here. I didn't know when. So but when you open your phone and there's. 234 text messages. Hmm. And it's just like, where do you start? And. A lot of them are just like people that. I just I've lost their numbers like I don't it's like they take like just, for instance, Terry Rhino, like he reached out and thank God, Terry put it at the bottom. This is Terry Sledge, right? Right, right. You know, because I didn't like this so many people that are reaching out to me and it's just like, I lose my father. If I lose s**t all the time, it's like, I don't. I don't have a way to get back to you. And that's all I can do is is basically just go down because they're just there. They're just giving me well wishes and it's it's absolutely unbelievable. If that was the case with some of them, they just didn't. Yeah, if you'd know who it was, yeah, I Pat Buck reached out and, you know, I guess they've been following the show over there. And he said, if anything, the company could do anything for you. GW, of course, and I went ahead and told them they could get Tony a good booker on your behalf, but it's going to happen. I think that's that's that's that's exactly it. You know, I got I got a message. And. There was, you know. Connecticut, no. And I just said, you know. It wasn't my fault. I was like, this is as far somebody from the office and I started to read it and it was Spence. I said this, I said, this is my new number. Believe me over here. Like, wow. Thank you. Yeah. That's why I didn't f**king pile on. The stuff, yeah. You know, because I. Is there anyone you were surprised that you heard from, maybe someone that, oh, this is what this is? I got a call. Yeah, it's. Last thing you want to do is is you want to make actual, as I call it, document like, you know, text messages are great. You can just like, thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. You know. But actual. So I had during this process, like one of the people I reached out to when Ric Flair sent me a message. And was telling me, you know, he loved me and, you know, anything, anything, I could do it. And the thing is with when you're one of the boys. It's not just. You know, they're not just it's not lip service, it's just like if you needed something and called I called Hulk. He'd be in it. He'd be here two and a half hours. Whatever it takes work to get here, I needed those guys. You know, and it's just like, but I did I, you know, Rick reached out to me and I reached, I said, Can you talk? And he said, Sure. So I went up by the pool. I said, How did you do it? Hmm. You know, with read like, how did. And we went over and we just. And it was. That's what. Makes this s**t work. Not some therapist that is going to look at me and and not be able to look past my tattooed arm. Or the fact that I was a mediocre wrestler. And, you know. You've elevated yourself to mediocre congratulation. So flair. Yeah, Ric Flair was able to give me some information. Yeah. And there are no answers. Right? I mean, it's as individual as well as the plugged my my friends, the JICA, OK, I'm drinking, I'm drinking the. What am I to draw the line? I'm drinking the lives of, so it's it's that's right. It's. Very good. So I'm sorry, go ahead. No, I just wanted to know what I mean because grief is as individual as everyone handles it differently, first of all and everyone's circumstances different. Your discussions with Rick were helpful. Yes. Yes. And then on top. So I asked Jerry Lawler. So Jerry's calling me and I'm like, and I'm in my mind, I'm thinking, Jerry Lewis The Sun. Is reaching out to me, but I just it's a that the two times he called me. I. Wasn't in a good place. And I just couldn't walk in with him. So this morning, I get up and I check my voice messages, which I never do. And I've got, you know. Again, the haters, the people that I do know that that somehow got my number that are going to, you know, so I've got to differentiate if it's for a friend or foe is the first game, you know? And I felt I hear Jerry say, Hey, man, you called me and I'm like, Oh man, I asked Dale Jerry, I think you're Jerry Strang to give me some love, which he would. I mean, because he's, you know, he's one of the boys were just like, like, no man. So I got it. I got it. If I forget Gerry and please, if somebody sees this and says, Gerry, know that I. I I. I must warn that I might need to talk to you because I asked you so. Well, it was it might have been a greater force that made that our style happen. Maybe you do now. I don't know, Jerry. Maybe, man. But maybe the I think I think Rick. I think Rick and Eric's like. The group came in some really good advice. They're just like. You know, the. It would behoove you to look into the iPhone because of the the transcription options, so you can actually when you hit the the the voicemail, it shows you in text form first so you can delete any of the photos before you have to listen. So I don't know that I think the enticement for my apple. Yeah, the way I think you pretty much know you put an apple on my desk. Exactly. Perfect place to rest perfectly there. We should tell the people listening and watching a little of what we were talking to the crew about, though you and I had had some foreplay over the last four years about a podcast. Oh yeah, there's really one person who made this podcast happen. I mean, a lot of people come together to make it happen. But yeah, to actually make no to Kevin and I take it seriously and buckled down. So but my, you know, my son is like, if you go on the YouTube and the TV room and the smart television you'll get. My son's plethora of podcasts that he watches, and he would say it was always the dads where I watched his dad watch us, so I finally sat down and watched Tom Segura with them. And actually, the one that I saw, I think was Jeselnik was the. Was the host was the guest on Siguro at the just smoke was the. The guest that was he was good and that it was like and I watched some crystal clear, he's a little bit this is different, but kind of. Similarly, I think we have a similar sense of humor. And that, of course, you know, we will watch Rogen and we will watch different people, and he would always say that this is something that I think you could do. You know that you, you know. You have you have comedic timing and, you know, a little bit about, you know, enough, you know, enough about enough things to piss people off. You know, so. Whenever I have determined that you and I do never we never need to. And I'm talking with Sean, and I would never need to talk about anything about how oil gets to our country because we have no idea on supply. And I, you know, and information is not available out there anyway, so no help from us so we can read about it or anything. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, it's just it's it's such a such a mystery. But anyway, he so we watch, watch, watch, watch, watched and I said, You know what? I said? Yeah, I said, but actually, I do it, but I have had to actually the only person I can think of that I could do this with would be Sean, she said. We'll call Sean. So I called Sean and we talked first, and then they sent us like Sean and I talked. You can take it from there. Well, then we had to once we decided we were going to do it. We had to. We had to shop it around. We had to find people willing to accept this pitch. It's going to be whatever we want to talk about. So what's the slang? What's the angle of whatever we want to talk about? You know, it's a show. This is the show about nothing. Go watch all the videos. You'll know what I'm talking about. Go, go watch us together on old videos you'll understand. And very quickly. I mean, I didn't have to even explain it. Conrad got it right away and was like, Done, you know? And so. So, Kevin, what do you think? And I said, Yeah. And then of course, I have the technical ability of Fred Flintstone if it was out times and I needed. So if my son didn't partake of it, you know, and I said, Would you help? And he said, Oh man. And it gave us like immediately it gave us just like something for us that was just ours, just show it was just me and tears and. He was always every Wednesday was always excited. And, you know, it was like, yeah, we can get in the car, but back it out and he hop in and he'd have his laptop and we'd shoot him a mile and a half down the road to the condo. Yeah, pull. Come upstairs and. Look at Czechoslovakia. Do our thing, and that's just to me was that's the thing that I'm going to miss the most, not the most, but just to hear his laughter. Hmm. Yeah. At one point I said to him, I said, don't hold your breath in the studio, laugh. I like the office and some people mentioned it on either Twitter. I saw people talking about, Yeah, it was so contagious. Yeah. Yeah, it was it was great, I said, don't don't be restrained and Tristin, too, for people don't know. We would talk to him, but you know, in between show, so we would talk to him, consult him for the music episode. My God, I had to go to him for so much s**t when we're doing the front man stuff for the contemporary stuff. And he would just pop up with that ideas, too. He would. 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It took me 30 seconds and I went real. All right. Prosthetic limbs? Oh my God. So f**king fake that that was true. That was Chris. And that was the sense of humor. Random phone call two o'clock in the afternoon. Okay, Max. Max has a phone full of So Max. Tell me a story yesterday about when Tristan had pissed in the sink of his grandmother's grandfather's house and like Matt Scott. Like really, you me? Because, you know, they were like, they were, you know, it's just like, I just got pissed about it. And the fact that the Tristan just so nonchalant nonchalantly I piston her f**king sink, you know, some. So Max shows me the. Like, you know, years later, Max, this really nice porcelain and gold sink. I don't know. It's probably something you could buy, you know, looking like a farmed farm sink with a porcelain. What was it? What was the caption? Yeah, it was there was a scene, but it had a little PC ports that you could walk, walk, walk, walk the dog down and take a piss. And what was the do you remember with the. Yeah, I think I think she's through spices, but when it got it, was it? Yeah, yeah, I could use that. I need that. So, yeah, I know I don't know what the f**k I'm going to do. Without him, but. You you each gave each other a lot for for twenty six, and it's to have had the relationship not without its bumps, but to all the depth of the relationship that you had some never achieve. I saw my sights. I saw, you know, I said, I don't want to. I don't want to go into social media. I definitely don't want to go on like the internet or, you know, TMZ or any of this. But it's like as soon as they can, they're going to put. I mean, it's just like. Tristen Marsh died at 26 years old today. And now pictures of them both in their parking jumpsuits. I didn't see any of it. Honestly, I saw some. Did you really? Yeah. The sources that I saw, the news sources were clean and I was looking for it because I would have been proud of my whole thing is, you know, is all these? I'm not really. They don't even deserve an F-bomb, so I'm just going to say all these. Scumbags. That take one incident between me and my son. And make that be the defining moment, because I don't know, maybe that maybe their father wasn't. There at all, so I mean, for them, for their dad to actually, you know, engaged with them to that degree because he was concerned. But anybody will ever look at those pictures, will look at my son and he's got kind of a smirk on his face and his his jump in his mug shot. Are you going to tell me that I would have mounted sober a drunk kid? He wouldn't have occurred A.. Because that's I mean, I chokeslam them, I knocked them unconscious. I held him on top of the f**king counter. He was as strong as a f**king bull. I figured something that I had screwed in somewhere was going to blow, and I told my wife, Call the cops, I can't hold this f**king kid. Yeah, that's what happened. They came. It was Christmas Eve. Who works Christmas Eve? Oh, the guy with 27 years experience? No, the guy with 27 minutes experience is working Christmas Eve. He comes in the house is Kevin Nash and figures f**king. I'm going to take some realism. Take the guy. No. So. Yeah, so that's so that we have that, you know, that that one night and then the next day they came with all the trucks, with all their bulls**t, with those scopes over the fence, you know, and they, you know, at first, the first thing I said was, you both want to grab an air 15 and walk on the roof. And he's like, Because, yeah. And I said, no, they'll feel that we'll probably have Suad out here. I said, let's just walk out, Walkabout. I said we we both got my coffee mugs like, you know, just set up on the roof and put our feet up on the other rail. And I looked out at the ocean and just drank out of these coffee mugs. And it was just like everybody was set up around my house and it was like, you could just see Willy, who's folding the s**t up, like, Well, they gave us nothing. No story. Nothing, nothing. Yeah. Come on, man. Do you think they were in ashes with no one? We don't sell no to. We're cool. I said we went out different cars, so we, you know, to get out of the jail. I got I got before him. And we're going home, and I'm talking to him on a cell phone to me about that f**king breakfast we had, huh? He goes. Was that chili and separate black beans and lima beans, all with a with a half a hamburger bun? I said, Yeah. He goes, Well, was this a jail? Yeah, that's jail, man. Like, yeah, like it's jail, dude. Like, No, you don't want to go there. That's that's let's let's not let's not drink Jack Daniels again and come home. And you know, I said, let's not repeat this. Let's make this a one time, a one time run. And it was and I was hopeful that that one night did not usurp 26 years of nights and I didn't see it. You did. I'm sorry that I was out there, but almost all the sources I saw, people e online all celebrated him and mentioned his music. One mentioned the band and, you know, did their diligence a little bit to find out a little bit about T when they ran some great covers he did when he was young on YouTube, like fake plastic trees and a space oddity he did when he have like long dreads that he did down in the keys, down to Key West. There's some juice and then there's other is. This album was the builders of the boxcar and a bottle or a boxcar, a jug, a line which is that he did with his band. Which is hopefully we'll search it out and yeah, charges and. This is one of those things, like I did, I wanted to do this today because I thought that. I hope I hope that I could, because this meant so much to both of us, so I could continue. You know? Because there was there was nothing best of this week. So we we we didn't have anything to put in Best-Of because there was no best of this week this week, suck dick. So but I was hoping that we were able to do something today and I was able to keep some kind of composure. And this is not me. This is not me doing this. I mean, I have wanted to break down. There's no right way to do a count. Look, I have what I've wanted to break down this whole show. He will let me right. It just seems like that's what we do. And you know what? He's happy, you're here. You know, I think he would have wanted you to come out, talk about him and and yourself. And I don't give a f**k about me. I do hope we'll see through you. We have stuff to learn. Yeah. Be a sailor hand, and my own thing is, you know, you were talking earlier about about the alcohol. Hmm. And no one. You know this our society makes alcohol very sexy. You know. James Bond, you know, shaken, not stirred. Women drink, you know, champagne and everything is so sexy. Drink champagne and all you all you do is is have the world's, you know, worst headache the next day. You know, it's a nest. No one, it's this is this is the country we live in the federal. Is. And in. A category completely by itself opposite calibers, which is with heroin and cocaine. How? And in 2022. How is cannabis still? Classified what it is. I don't know, and when people oppose its legalization, these are the same people that have no issue with you going down to the corner hammer and a fifth of jack and and killing and killing their two soccer soccer aged kids in the back seat of some s**tty Dodge Caravan. I have no problem. Yeah. Yeah, no problem whatsoever. Alcohol is that is the nastiest. It's such a nasty drug. I mean, it's just and it's a drug. So anybody out there, if you haven't drank, you've probably done yourself an incredible service. If you do drink and you're you're having problems and you know it's affecting your life and you know, it's affecting your health. You can't see the damage it's doing, especially, you know, like nobody goes to the doctor. Nobody gets checked up. Nobody does anything. Nobody has blood work and that's a silent killer. Alcohol is eating your organs, weakening your heart, weakening your constitution and. I have spent half my life glamorizing the rock and roll, hard charging, hard drinking part drug party and wrestling world that I grew up in and lived in and I really needed like I needed to take a step back from that and go, You're you're you're part of the problem, NASH. You glamorize a lifestyle that kills people and you got to stop doing that. So. You guys like Sean, you've got to you've got to keep me in check on the show. Yeah, well, lessons, lessons for all. And oh yeah. I mean, you're certainly not the only one. I've talked to hundreds of them over the years that also everyone, everyone has a little fun with those stories. It's hard. It's it's not like it's an exaggeration. That's the that's the the real problem of it. You know, it's not like the lifestyle was exaggerated. It's like it's actually probably toned down a little bit because, you know, for for the innocence of our families, right? But yeah, no, what you say is true. And there was there was a time. It's people also have to understand that things are a little different. Times were a little different and alcohol, though, though no, no less dangerous if behind the wheel or if consumed in copious amounts daily. You didn't. You didn't have at one time. Know we're talking 70s early and you didn't have the painkiller availability that that came in the 90s and the thousands and in all that stuff. So it got it, got it, got compounded very quickly. And this is no news flash to anybody who's seen the amount of wrestler, overdoses and whatnot in in recent years far, far outweighing any of the guys that worked in the 70s or prior. So, yeah, but but you're right and it in the shoot world, it kind of became like a punch line right there. The three saw my story, for example, or something like that. It becomes an anecdote, but because everybody was OK, right? Because everybody lived to tell about. Yeah, no, no, no. Those that lived told about it. Right. But not everybody lived to tell about it, because that was that was not the case. Right. It's a miracle as I'm actually not looking at you and now looking at myself in this. I'm looking right in my own eyes right now. And wherever I am. And it's. I am amazed that I am sitting here alive because I know this and we've all said this, we shouldn't be your guys, your boys. Am I slowly turning into Jeff Bridges? 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Let me run the numbers for you right now. You may be glad you did buy with Conrad Gqom. Well, before we roll out of here for this week, Kevin, is there, is there anything people can do? Is there somewhere to to donate is is there something for for someone for whom you've become important? And I think that the number one thing because I know that he has an autism. An autism? No, no, no. But it has his license plate is, you know, how done Florida you can give out. You can get anything, you know, like I saw priests the other day and said, I'm a pedophile. Weird. But. You know, he's the autism thing. I think we, you know, Matt Morgan and I, Matt Matt reached out to me and Matt has an autistic son and Jack's is just, I mean this with Allbaugh. And I know that some, like Matt, is like, we talked last night at me and he was. It would be taxed, and it was just. But he sent me a video that you just showed me a video because he just he wanted me to, I guess, to see his anguish because what? The mayor of Longwood, I think he's the mayor of Longwood. And she what he does because Matt had an addiction issue. Matt, on his off days, goes to the to the regional Orlando hospitals and goes in and gives pamphlets. And information about drug and alcohol and rehab and and Joe to try to get them as they leave their addiction to take the next step. And she walked in to a room in Orlando Medical Center and you know, there was a six foot five Charles Manson sitting in this bed, and he didn't even register that this. Dark haired, curly with a giant beard. Was my son. Oh, really? Yeah. And he was just like, so he I'm sure he was just like, Holy s**t, you know, because last time he saw him like T has short hair and he was a T and a and he Dixie, you know, we walked round and stayed with Dixie while me and Mick, me and Mick had a match and he kind of tagged around me and Mick as we put the match together. And like everybody, just like that was the last time I saw T, and now it would been maybe three or four years later. And you know, to you, you know, have gotten it was still. And that's what he was like a crazy or anything, and just like, OK, you know, f**k it like, you know, he was he'd been in the hospital for 30 days. We have incidents, though. But yeah, and he had been in rehab before he went into the hospital. You know, I mean, he went like from from detox to rehab to hospital. So this was this day back it back in February. Yeah, this is this is January, February, March, right? Rehab was the first, the first month and. So it was just like, you know, like Matt finally reached out to me because he said I was in there. I said, would my son say said yes to this guy? We're like, whatever. I just, yeah, you know, like I just got out of rehab in this for Hollywood. So what? What a second. Yeah. Anyway, that's half the problem in the rehab industry is such a racket. I mean, it's just a racket and you get into it, man. You know, Scott had like 13, you know, 13 months of of rehab. It was just it was just a joke. It ain't cheap either. No, no. So, so is there anywhere, anywhere fans can direct their attentions to autism, autism, autism awareness? I don't know. I mean, I have I will coordinate. I really haven't had, you know, I'm just still trying to. It's not that I'm I don't need to process anything, I understand exactly. It's just that. The process right now is. Dealing with the immense loss. Just. In and every aspect memories I have, I've got a memory bank full of, you know, I don't need, I don't need, I don't need anything there. But man, I really was looking forward to spending, you know, my golden years with with my wife, my boy. And. I'll find save me, Ms. You know, I'll find ways to try to stay connected. But you know. And with that, we'll let everyone know once, Kevin, that's something of a fortress. Just give me, yeah, just give me a yes, gimme gimme, gimme gimme 40 more minutes. Give you a couple of seconds to feel like you feel like Sizemore in Saving Private Ryan. You're right. Yeah, it's got the wind knocked out of me feel like sighs more than anything, including daily life, as I do want to do something before we close, though, there are a lot of people who were supportive here on the podcast Heat and and scrambled to do whatever you wanted to do, whether you take some time or come on. So if you guys just bring yourselves up for a minute, we've got Steve, who I bounced him all over the place. Do a best of show, know we're doing the show we're doing on Friday. We're doing this. But he was great and it cleared the decks for us. Thanks, guys. Thank you. Dom was was very conscientious about his posts and handling the press release on social media for you. Wesley said, Can we get? Can we get Tristan in the credits? And he's Yana made it it, and he's also the audio editor. But from the animation standpoint, he said, What can we do if we ever get to the? We never got to the point that we're going to make the show now is going to open with created by Shawn Oliver and Tristan and Kevin Nash. Well, I have the I do have that in my read and in my closing credits. You Oh, OK, I'm sorry. So I don't know. I don't know. I f**ked up like I didn't want to close. And so I'm sorry I shut up. No, but that's why I wanted to talk about it. So people know exactly what it was. I it was a lot more than sitting off camera laughing and and so was at the last minute was able to do that. Even when I threw him a curveball, I said, but Kevin in it put Kevin in. But he did. Knocked it out of the park is great. Everybody's talented and and Conrad, who's not on here, who the last thing he cared about when I talked to him was any podcast. He said, What can we do for Kevin? Thanks, Connie. And I said, I said, I will. I will let you know. So and Sabato reached out and Kevin Greene and the whole team. So everyone here and and makes you beyond. Thanks, guys. Thank you. Thank you, guys. Thanks, guys. He's got no problem. And it is time to remind everyone that click. This is a production of Butch and Sundance media, produced in association with podcast and created by Kevin Nash, Tristan Nash and Shawn Oliver. Producer Steve Kaplan. Credits by Dominic D'Angelo title sequence and audio edited by Wesley Burleson. Theme song Dale Oliver, Copyright 2022 and Kevin, I always asked you as a work every week, but I'm going to ask you for real this time. Do you want to do another? You got the green light. You got the office, you got the office in itself, all right. Keep. With me now. West. With me now. West.